today was my first day at work this month! i just could resist not working more...my life's way too hectic already with skating and job hunting. anyhow, i went to see a recruiter for Sumitomo Mitsui Bank. it was quite an experience. i have to study harder. a lot harder.

and mr. n is amazing. i was reeeaaaalllly down about everything, especially with the skating club and how a lot of people were very incorporative this spring having to do with making the skating team better. as a matter of fact, they don't practice enough. they can't even attend the two weekly practices. what's the point of them of being a part of the skating team? haha, i know it's not funny, but i can't stop laughing. they're definitely way out of my hands. anyway, so i somehow decided i emailed mr. n and he replied and his words made me feel so much better. now i think i could have confidence in myself, because i'm a CAPTAIN afterall. there's nothing to be scared of.